Starting over

The New Year is starting in a few days and I have a few things to think about concerning what I want for the next year....
listening to this song by my friend, and really liking it
I'd like to work harder, make more money, give more.

updated reel:

Can't wait to be with my scanner again so I can upload the sketches I've been doing since I came home. Pics of being home are in this and in my previous entry.
Have been brainstorming. And the Chen women got hair cuts.

Happy Holidays, love Paul, Ling, Oliver, Emily, Andrea and Booty Chen

Christmas Eve 12/24/2010

The Secret Garden is my favorite film

Someone recently asked me what my favorite movie was. I used to say Say Anything, back in high school. I like the idea of the story still, all that was on my mind was finding realness in movies, and love. But the acting, some of the side characters, and an overall dislike of the female protagonist has grown gradually over the years.
My favorite movie when I was a child and that I've always quoted growing up, and am watching right now, is The Secret Garden. Being home means that I've developed a deeper relationship with my netflix account. I remember when I first got the movie, it came with a promotional locket. That's why I've always been obsessed with lockets I think. Something secret and precious hung over the heart. And the soundtrack, I still can hum. The visual aesthetics really influenced my photography and sketches... just a really great film. So I hereby amend my answer- world. The Secret Garden

"They even had twin ivory elephants"

liz, what did you once say about acting?
hit your mark, stay in your light and do the same thing every time for continuity
see, anyone can do it.
(30 rock)

General Electric Green Initiative Commercial

I didnt know this was out until my sister was like "someone saw you on TV for this 'green' thing" lol. wait til the end: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kvQ_mqui2Bc
-"Idea Girl"





I can go out every night of the week... but it’s just a temporary high ’cause when I close my eyes
I’m somewhere with you, somewhere with you

Messing around with the guitar, really like this song.

I weigh 111.8 lbs

Dallas has been kind to me. Loved being home for a few days, got to see my dad for his birthday, worked on set a bit, got some good advice.
I have this idea of this guy in my head, and I'm going to continue working towards being like him, until I see him again. But for now, keeping focused. maybe this will help me not distracted.
Hung out with the family... Today I went to the doctors, the eye doctor as well, and an audition. Which is where I was surprised to find that I've lost a lot of weight. stress probably. anyway, cant wait to see Booty tomorrow.

daddy's don't just love their children every now and then
it's a love without end, amen

i'm just a soul who's intentions are good.
lord, please don't let me be misunderstood.

Hands down
I'm too proud, for love
But with eyes shut
It's you I'm thinking of

anything worth having is hard work. i'm just afraid to fail

Weight vs Lightness

Got a tiny role on this tv show in Dallas and am going to be able to be home for my dad's birthday!
Airborne...
"did you trade a walk on role in the world, for a lead role in a cage" ("Wish You Were Here" by Pink Floyd)

Do I want to be weighed down by things and people and work.. or be free and lonely as a bird, lighter than anything, only doing things that won't last.

If I am distant sometimes, I'm just giving out what's been given me. I wonder if I've made the right decisions. Children, be as innocent as doves, and as cunning as snakes. “Behold, I am sending you out as sheep in the midst of wolves" (Matthew 10:16)
Was sick yesterday and today, rested finally. I've been working too hard. My parents think it unusual that I still try and talk to people, given the sort of transient life I've grown accustomed too lately. Apparently I should be stressed about things I can't help, and only think of that. But I want to get closer to you, given time.

♫ "I never thought I'd be so tired at 22." - St Elmo's Fire

One thing I don't like about being sick, is being forced to be alone with your thoughts. I don't like it. Too much and I can't get away from it. Also I slept for 14 hours; didn't realize my body wanted that much rest. Is it a sign? Am I putting my energy into the wrong places? (yes).

This is the story of everyone (worth knowing) 's life:
I loved someone very much, and it didn't work out. And life won't be the same unless it someday works out. And until then my life has a void that I fill with ___.
Also. I want to be like Lil Wayne in his documentary where he says he doesnt care about anyone, or anything. I don't want to get there the same way, seems like he's been through some crazy things, but. At times, I'd like to be able to say that.