180. When I heard the Learn'd Astronomer

WHEN I heard the learn’d astronomer;
When the proofs, the figures, were ranged in columns before me;
When I was shown the charts and the diagrams, to add, divide, and measure them;
When I, sitting, heard the astronomer, where he lectured with much applause in the lecture-room,
How soon, unaccountable, I became tired and sick;
Till rising and gliding out, I wander’d off by myself,
In the mystical moist night-air, and from time to time,
Look’d up in perfect silence at the stars.

Today I spent the afternoon at shirleys and went to this awesome fish and then organic veggie farmers market nearby. got red chili peppers for $1.50 and some pasta and potatos. Then met jenny and went to chinatown (it was snowing!) and got some beef and chicken, snacks, vegetables. then went to my old friend katha's in brooklyn and heard some nice classical music played by other young people, and... now i'm going to sleep.


Yesterday I saw shirley, went to an improv practice session at ucb, saw Jenny at eoc, went to see the Kris Bowers trio at Living Room.. Julia Easterlin was performing with them... so good. then went dancing.

my friend jenny was asking me this morning, about a quote she'd seen about treating people the way they should in turn act.
i think we do ask people to fit into already preset roles and expectations, instead of who they might really be. but there's a reason we have those needs, specifically, and given to us since we were perhaps children. because without people acting a certain way, that's good for us, it could hurt us, and possibly has.
last night, was feeling down. went to the theatre, then dinner with wynton jenny and mark mckinnon from freshman year.

when i was younger. http://youtu.be/CGhy7gzJgDo

I dreamed I'm at mikes door about to go in hes in front and keeps looking around like he's checking for something I ask do u have mice he murmurs something And turns around his head is a giant snake and his mouth is all stretched out with the fangs out about to eat me.

last night i went to this swing dance valentines thing at bogardus mansion, then tribeca grand to hang out with jenny and effie.

me: oh, i dunno if i told you, but garam's engaged
2:04 PM been a little sad about it
Emily: really?
so fast!
me: yea...
Emily: seriously?
me: thats what ive been telling all my friends. Im not jealous, just sad, and it seems fast
Emily: huh
but in any case kudos for being strong about it
me: thanks
yea just tryng to stay busy
went to some events last night, got pictures taken looking really happy
ironic really
2:07 PM Emily: nah i get that

Must be Nice.

I just love the original of this song... and find this cover video so sad. If ever there was a reason to not do drugs- it's this. Obviously talented guy...
http://youtu.be/8fcsDuq8iE8


(the original)
must be nice, having someone you dont have to show ,they know exactly where it hurts.... trust you, despite what they've heard. http://youtu.be/GkpN3uiZ-Ew

Good people always find each other

this weekend.
saturday i couldnt wait to wake up. did some design work, had good thai food.. went to see 'crash' at museum of the moving image and felt like i didnt get to see/ do / talk as much as i wanted. i just want to be thought of as a rocket ship too.
sunday i went to film biz prop shop with shirley and got two coats and a sofa cover that i really like its blue and a soft velvet.
On the subway, she says to be careful not to change myself for anyone. i say don't worry, people don't really change much, even if they want too. she says i've never met anyone like you.

wingbowl 2012. kobayashi won.
got back today and hung out with jenny and effie. they're cool. jennys clothes are at this store end of century.. last night there was a performance artist shelley that plays for bjork or something, was ambient almost churchlike, prolonging the sounds as much as one can individually and still interest.

gesso'd some canvases

damaging doug

phillie mummers

I've noticed pretty people are more hurt when they don't get things handed to them. But you know why they think life should be easier? Experience.

was looking up when i got my glasses, and found this from Oct 1....
"Saturday i ate at veselka (salmon latka something and borchst with beef), got glasses at fabulous fannies, cheesecake and spogiaghetti (?) at venieros, and hung out in belchertown brooklyn, where eating is always strange and healthy...
I think people stress the most about things they can't control- precisely for that reason... there are definitely moments where I look at a person and go soft... I look at objects and the rain and friends and my heart catches."

Latest comment from Oliver Chen
I was just doing some thinking. I'm glad you're happy. It's pretty hard to just be happy. I think you just have to decide it. I bet tightrope walkers are happy in the moment. Maybe they're not thinking about anything. And isn't that what happiness is all about?

beauty isnt just a person's face.
it's seeing everything they touch become beautiful too.
the care they put into the world makes you want to be in it more.

i was taught as a child that the only real way to enlighten anyone (in that case to God's word) is to just live your life and let people see.