You were in college, working part-time...
Left a small town and never looked back
I was a flight risk, afraid of fallin'
Wondering why we bother with love, if it never lasts

Flash forward, and we're takin' on the world together
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and figure out why I'm guarded

But we got bills to pay
We got nothin' figured out
When it was hard to take
Yes, yes

This is what I thought about:

Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

And I remember that fight, two-thirty AM
You said everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out, crying, and you followed me out into the street

Braced myself for the goodbye, cause that's all I've ever known
Then, you took me by surprise
You said, "I'll never leave you alone."

You said, "I remember how we felt, sitting by the water.
And every time I look at you, it's like the first time."

You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you believe it?
We're gonna make it
I can see it now

"Indecent Exposure" stills..

Look what I found.....
hahahahah
http://www.blurty.com/users/cgirlA88
I can't believe I had an online outlet even back in 2003. A blurty??

Sitting here in an almost empty second floor eating area of McDonalds near my apartment, on the laptop on a Saturday morning with the largest breakfast plate and mocha frappe available... wanting to be useful and do something today, on the computer, I just don't know exactly what anymore. lol. So I'm taking a break for now, to write on here...
I've been learning to hope for things, but not expect them.

Had a fun shoot with Siemens today in Paoli Hospital, in PA. It was 15 minutes from my birthplace in Bryn-Mawr, funnily enough. Everyone was really nice and I got home and am now relaxing.

http://newdressaday.wordpress.com/

"Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not
understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.
But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and
recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before
you and how fabulous you really looked

Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as
effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing
bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that
never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm
on some idle Tuesday. Do one thing everyday that scares you Sing Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with
people who are reckless with yours.

Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your
life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they
wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year
olds I know still don’t.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for
good. Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the
people most likely to stick with you in the future. Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you
should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and
lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you
knew when you were young. Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard"

"Indecent Exposure" Behind the Scenes

Here are some behind the scenes pictures, and a video of filming "Indecent Exposure" this past weekend.
For more pics, click here.

I've been working every day to be the person you deserve and should end up with.
I had such a great long weekend working with everyone on the set of "Indecent Exposure". Loui Terrier was a really easy and creative director to work with, the other cast members and crew were so great- it was just one of the funnest and most relaxed shoots I've done.. I play a car accident victim named Amy who learns to appreciate what she has a little more... pics coming.

I'm officially signed on to film "Indecent Exposure" this week, the Tommy Strauss short next week, and the week after, "Graduation Party" and "6 Billion Dollar Man"!

last night was the screening of kin's film "the encounter". love how it came out....
looking forward to having you all be able to see it, 15TM, keith's animation film, and the two other film's i'm doing this month. and seeing if I get this design job..
today im having lunch with friends from school, then filming, then maybe hanging out with roommate.

Last night, Katy and I went to see this off-Broadway play her mom got us tickets for called "Love, Loss, and what I Wore" and got coffee and dessert after at a restaurant nearby called Rachel's. The play was really good, there was a monologue I really liked about how women are with their purses, and how relationships are like that perfect white tee. The loss of the perfect, basic t-shirt is like a hole in your life that you try to fill or replace, and it should be easy to do, since the tee shirt is everywhere, however that one that fit you so perfectly again is really hard to find.. but at least you know what you're looking or waiting for. Katy and I took a nice walk after and happened upon this cute restaurant that was playing live jazz. Some guy and girl sang a really nice acoustic version of "Greatest fan of your life" by edwin mccain...

"you're my living proof,
my love is alive and not dead
I'll be you're crying shoulder, I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older...
I'll be the greatest fan in your life"

"The Encounter" Behind the Scenes pics

Tomorrow night, there will be a picture bomb of all the behind the scenes of my happenings, thanks to the always incredible John Nolan, my friend and really good photographer.
I shot two films recently, "The Encounter" (screening this friday) and "Struck at First Sight". In "The Encounter" I'm led around the city on a treasure hunt to find this guy, got to work with the cutest child actor. In "Struck at First Sight" Keith (who is super talented: http://keitheng.net/ ) directed me in a short film about two guys vying to impress their 'perfect girl' and only one succeeds, in an unusual way. So pics will be coming...
Some good stuff is about to happen but i'll tell you more when it's for sure and done with. Still doing design work, and thanks to Christy I might have some very good news.... ahhhh i want to tell it all now. Just gotta give it a day.
I met my roommate for the next three weeks yesterday, and she's really nice. I've just been doing my best lately, and trying to do my thing while still caring about someone. but it's hard sometimes. You know, trying to do your thing while someone else does there's, and wondering if they think about you at the same time. I just need Booty around and i'll be okay :) she's stretched out on my lap right now and is being very cute.

You know, I got this fantasy.
...                  
Going somewhere, you know,
like, somewhere really...               
clean. 
                 
- Clean?
- Yeah.
                 
No scumbags telling you what to do.
Nobody yelling at you all the time.
                 
Someplace you could just be.
                 
Be yourself.
    
No bad stuff.

That sounds good.

(from the movie Gigli watched it tonight while I was supposed to be reading over the three films scripts coming up.

One year. I'm giving myself one year to learn how to live happily with myself.
Gonna get my life together, schedule so things don't conflict, feel life again every day the way I used too.
I can be too demanding, of myself, my relationships with other people. I'm going to work on all that. August 7th 2011.

Had a nice dinner tonight and realized that things could turn out alright. I already knew really, but I have a lot of hope in the future, while being a realist. With good people showing more kindness to me than I could have ever expected lately, I can only hope to return that in time.
Meeting my new agent Shirley next week to sign the papers! I'm officially signing with the woman who's son played Turk on Scrubs! haha.

Andrea Chen. A girl who doesn't know what she is or who she is. But is learning.

I wrote a rhyme today, regarding everybody:

You can't know what I'm going through
If you did, you wouldn't act the way you do.

an update on my last post.
I need to stop whining about my life and feeling like i'm being continually punched in the stomach. I've always been a fighter, since I did pushups as a baby in my crib. I'm going to do everything I can to make my life great.

an honest vent about working on myself.

I've gone through so much shit in the past couple months, no the last 4 years of my life really. since I came to New York I've had my heart shit on, led on, broken, sewn up, and forgotten. I wouldn't trade it for anything, and I'm grateful that I can be living here and being a grown up and feeling these things... how do you know to be truly happy and appreciate your life unless you've really been hurt and gone through some stuff?
It's hard.. sometimes I think I try to mask my pain through other people, activities, and stuff, to try and make it easier... but I don't want to have to depend on that, put my pain onto other people. I want to be strong and independent, and when I'm ready, be fair and honest with everyone around me, so that no one can say I treated them wrong. I want to be happy and care about people, and not put too much of a burden on them...
It's so shitty being alone sometimes so that all you hear is yourself thinking. But that thinking is me actually processing all the stuff that's been happening to me, so maybe I need to listen.
Pray for me.
I've been screwed out of money by so many people, lost my apartment, my boyfriend, my job- everything. But all I can do is my best right? and then there's just God. And I haven't encountered anything yet that was too hard to handle.

"Don't say you want me
Don't say you need me
Don't say you love me
It's understood
Don't say you're happy
Out there without me
I know you can't be
'Cause it's no good

Gonna to take my time
I have all the time in the world
To make you mine
It is written in the stars above "
-depeche mode "it's no good"

Wig day at ricky's...

"Your playing small does not serve the world. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconciously give other people permission to do the same." -Nelson Mandela's inaugural speech.

"When one door closes another opens. But often we look so long so regretfully at the closed door that we fail to see the one that has opened for us." -Helen Keller (ironic? because she can't see ohhh.. i'm awful)