knuckles and the heart

I was just thinking about when I was young and my dad told me not to crack my knuckles ( you know when people bend their fingers back so it makes that cracking noice).. he said everytime you do, it feels good, but it's breaking muscles in your joints, so it has to grow back over the broken parts, so when people crack their knuckles too much, their joints become too big and deformed. I dont want to do that to my feelings, you know.. potentially crack and tear up my heart if i meet a nice boy, and it could hurt so much and I'm afraid my heart will be like that- overly deformed and big, making my hands look old before they're supposed too.

hurrican schmurricane

an earthquake, hurricane, and some little tornados all this week, who would've thought. camping out with the cat, with above supplies for the weekend.

The weekend was pretty crazy and in its fluctuations between stressful and nice and relaxing. friday i wanted to go out, but the rain was coming down really hard and I ended up staying in and having really good conversations in the apartment with a few drinks. I really want to get a copy of the codex seraphinianus and of the voyinch manuscripts. Woke up a little late, and walked through a street fair and tasted a really good $3 chili dog. Then that night i got to see one of my oldest and dear friends vivian, who's about to start harvard law, and was only in town for the evening. but things were really crowded, the bar and then club, and two girls with us passed out and were vomiting and two made out with each other, and it wasnt the best situation. plus girls get dramatic sometimes, friday and saturday night i ran into little moments where i had to just not be a part of it.

Someone asked me whats the one thing you like most about a guy.

I said when you find one that knows exactly what to say. not like smooth talking, but just knows what to say to you. or when to call.

The inside cover for my little journal.

this week in pictures

bbq
booty paddington chen

messing around on the chevron print ad shoot

charlie moms with the girl next door

I made this! finally! for the bathroom. from a david bray print

little postcards i made this morning

this week in pictures

I've been daydreaming of traveling, and trying to save money. Got my horoscope read to me (which of course is like a fortune cookie, just fun), and want to do what it said - advances in my career this year and meet new people in those opportunities. ooohohh

I like this song, wanna live that way, slow. learn not to rush things, and have the next relationship be because i fell in love with my best friend

Been hanging out more with my old boarding school friends this summer... Work exhausts me still some days, but I like being able to move my hands like magic over the tablet, using Photoshop like a winner.
Learning to be cautious but want so much.

I really like this http://www.medicinalpen.com/dreamlogs.html

I'm not going to lie, I love Wendy Williams- girl is smart. One thing she says in the below video is that in a marriage, she believes it might not last forever, but you ride until the wheels fall off- you give it four chances, like the wheels, to fix it and get back together before calling it quits. Four?


So I have one of my own that I've said for a while and I'll just say mine to go along with this- I want to be like Goldilocks, first relationship was too hot, second too cold, the third one I want to be perfect, and I think that's why I've been so picky this past year.

Also I'm doing this

She said nothing


Since Saturday I've been feeling like life is so short and passing by every moment that could be significant.
This song made me sad, wanting someone so much but wondering and feeling silence on the other end. love is the right timing.