I was reading an article just now about a model who may have committed suicide today.. I guess partly because he's my age and I can identify with the frustration in the last quote, I just thought this was really tragic.
"Twenty-two-year old French model Tom Nicon was found dead in Milan this morning... Nicon reportedly fell from his apartment window...
Nicon's tragic passing is just the latest in a string of top model deaths over the past couple of years. An anonymous model said,
'People think we are young and beautiful and rich and happy. But we're not. We go to castings and the directors take one look at us and then we're dismissed. You spend your whole life wondering what's wrong with you. Why didn't I get that job? You're competing with your friends, you're away from your family. The pressure is huge. It's not the fairytale life people would expect.' " So sad.

Birthday pictures...

"Write it in a letter,
but the words don't come out right.
Trying to explain how nobody can do me like.
You don't understand how helpless I can get
Since the day that we met.
Oh can you feel it yet?"
('ready and waiting to fall' by mae)

Happy birthday to me!

I had so much fun tonight. Qi for dinner, got pad thai with duck. Then we went to Flannery's Pub down the street which is where we went for my 21st last year- so effing fun! Joseph did crazy magic tricks, a bag of trash was set on fire in the street while we were standing outside, we got crazy amounts of mcnuggets to eat at like 2AM. lol... and now I'm finally gonna pass out and sleep.
Yesterday (not my bday party but my actual bday) I went to an afro-boogy music concert in BK. Stayed up till like 4AM talking.
'my love's a revolver
do you wanna die happy'

"if you can't afford to lose, you shouldn't play" -oliver chen

I'm learning, just learning
Learning how to live and bear the weight, push into the sky

I tripped along the sidewalk today, and now my ankle is the size of a grapefruit. well, they do say 'break a leg' for good luck. wonder what a swollen ankle means.
also, my birthday is this week.

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Bought a new dress today. Like?
"Nowadays most people die of a sort of creeping common sense and discover when it is too late that the only things one never regrets are one's mistakes" -dorian gray

It was a dream, not a nightmare, a beautiful dream I could never imagine in a thousand nods. There was a girl next to me who wasn't beautiful until she smiled and I felt that smile come at me in heat waves following, soaking through my body and out my finger tips in shafts of color and I knew somewhere in the world, somewhere, that there was love for me.
- "The Basketball Diaries"

This city turns people into shadows http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0vhpB6EF6l8

My Thesis Exhibit, and last hurrah at Parsons, concludes this week. It's been a great ride. On to the next thing.

Check out my Thesis Project on the Parsons Exhibit Website: http://amt.parsons.edu/bfacdt/thesis/2010/2010/05/sleepless-nights/
I designed my friend Michelle Wolter's one-woman-show postcard recently- everyone should go check out her upcoming production at the Midtown International Theater Festival.
GaRam and I made a little youtube channel recently. Click here for more!