One of my short films "The Bridge" just showed at the Sonoma Film Festival, and won the Audience award!
http://thebridge.filmbinder.com/
And is showing this weekend at the Tallahassee Film Festival.
http://www.tallahasseefilmfestival.com/films_2011/index.php?type=film&id=34

booty loves me

I notice in new york, people are so fluid, floating in and out of each others lives pretty easily. The people I seem to value the most, are ones I met before coming here. (Although of course there are people here I also value.)
Even though the events that occur in this city have been more impactful, the people grew less, in comparison. Which I never thought would happen. But I've learned that people talk about their relationships in time or status rather than by name (oh I was with so and so for seven years, didnt work out. name, oh you wouldnt know them).. Same goes for work relationships, friends and who they know.. When did events (which always fluctuate in life) become more valuable than the individual?

Its a contradiction trying to stay innocent as doves, but know as much as snakes.

Finally watched this movie "Before Sunrise" and really liked it.

it's friday! this past week summed up:

I used to say in high school, that instead of dating, I would learn to be like an amoeba when I grew up, and just regenerate. Life doesn't work out necessarily, guess we'll just have to wait and see.
My little brother told me "The Lavender Menace" was betty friedan's name for lesbians in the feminist movement










"I've been around for a little over 20 years
And to anyone who needs advice on getting here
Don't ask me, the path i took was not exactly by the book, by the book
I was too young to know and too dumb to figure out
That you can lose yourself in all this traveling around
When you reach a point of no return losing touch with lessons learned

Let's go to the middle where time stands still
Let's get lost in those hills
Live a little closer to what is true
I'll be me and you be you

I'm finding out the ways of this world
Can be overcome with one boy's love for just one girl
And the only way to love yourself is to give your love to someone else, someone else
Don't believe in everything you hear
Growing up is more than just living through the years

I'm disappointed in myself
I left you on a shelf that i could never reach
I practiced what you'd always preached against
But now i'm back in my defense
That black and white world we tried to paint is really gray

So it took a little time to get this right
The guilty and the innocent are always side by side"

wanting

i keep coughing lately.
i wonder if you think about me.

Not that I put much stock into this, but I like how i'm described

Geminis born June 10 are on an endless roller coaster of highs and lows, which can amaze those who know them well. They are acutely aware of the expectations of others and may often go to great lengths to live up to them. Being at ease with who they are is a trait that they need to cultivate.

Gemini Information for June 10 You should embrace: Joy of living, moderation, quiet times You should avoid: Excesses, unwise love affairs, depression

Friends and Lovers

Because they are vulnerable and kind, these individuals often choose friends who are having trouble in their lives. They are somewhat successful in romance, though they are wildly romantic and a bit idealistic. Despite this, they make loyal and loving mates.

Children and Family

Whether from a big or a small family, June 10 people love all the traditions. They are involved, caring parents. They are conscious of the psychological needs of their youngsters and will work hard to meet those needs, creating an atmosphere of trust and friendship.

Health

These people are amazingly vital and active. They have a high energy level and never seem to run down. But only a part of their energy is physical; the rest is emotional -- they are high on life. They can eat almost anything and usually do, but their diet, fortunately, is varied enough to keep them healthy.

Career and Finances

June 10 individuals love to "perform," so they often gravitate to careers that put them in the spotlight. They have good math skills and may become successful accountants or engineers. Yet they are not as good at managing their own finances and usually look to their mate to handle the family's money.

Dreams and Goals

Although they seem secure with their self-image, June 10 people actually need to have their ego carefully nurtured. They have a great many goals and plans yet may not always feel as if they have what it takes to bring them about.

new headshots from today, thanks to jamiya wilson

disclaimer, pre-photoshop

People shouldnt ask me to care about them, when they all go away in the end.

"Do you even go to this school?" "I just have a lot of feelings" - mean girls

My mom was saying that as the first child I got a lot of love growing up. As soon as my dad came home from work he'd want to hold me, and walk with me, so that I couldnt sleep unless he stayed up all night walking around with me. So finally they got a battery-powered crib that would rock me.
She said I was so spoiled, that now I expect a lot of love, and even the smallest hurt, hurts me more. I've gotten okay with being alone over the years, but it's hard to quel my feelings sometimes.
Although I have plenty of love for myself, I wonder if I learned from infancy, a really unrealistic capacity for being loved.

signed,
emo and greedy andrea