excited to come back to ny.

love her.

you will never see me eat a raw apple. my throat and lips swell.but i cut an apple up today, sprinkled some cinnamon on it, and put it in the toaster oven at 200 degree for 20 min. and i was able to eat and enjoy it.

 

When i first started this blog i was 18 and wanted everything to happen to me. Now i look in the mirror and I've changed.

I had this dream again where I'm my sister meeting me in the future. We haven't seen each other in a long time and we're driving around in a red car with the top down I think maybe its California. I'm visiting, and feel so distant. She seems pretty still, calm, moneyed but colder. We agree that we wish we'd been closer over the years and she laughs a little hollowly, commenting maybe if things had worked out in Austin. She doesnt look at me really. I see she has this whole life now that ill never know or be a part of. Drops me off after we maybe have lunch and I know I'll never see her again. There's just this general feeling of sadness and missed friendship.

it's tough when what you love isn't yours.

I'm in Arizona, and back on facebook and my blog.

We're shooting the rest of this film, and in a week, I'll go back to my job at a gallery in Austin. Teddy moved out.

This is the first day of my life 

I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you 

But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you 

And I’d probably be happy

Traveling eating and working a lot. DC thanksgiving was fun.

happy diwali

i feel really lucky lately. precious, secret.

its just been a crazy month of firsts.
two natural disasters, trying new things, my first screen test.
teddy's the best boyfriend.

walking around the aftermath of hurricane sandy with teddy, we came across these abandoned vehicles.

ate my favorite, duck.

and celebrated diwali.