THE DEATH OF LEOPOLD GURSKY
Leopold Gursky started dying on August 18, 1920.
He died learning to walk.
He died standing at the blackboard.
And once, also, carrying a heavy tray.
He died practicing a new way to sign his name.
Opening a window.
Washing his genitals in the bath.
He died alone, because he was too embarrassed to phone anyone.
Or he died thinking about Alma.
Or when he chose not to.
― Nicole Krauss, The History of Love

I see crowds of people every day around Penn Station near where I work. I saw them today in soho and tonight in Central Park.

Its really nice that most of the people who were truly good to me are still around. In a world full of nameless people who dont matter, some do.

had the craziest dream last night

I had a dog or was in charge of my friends dog and its this derpy cute small thing, I put it on a leash and we're walking over a bridge and things are good. There's a bunch of other dogs and owners too when this one black little ratty dog really close to the left starts biting at my dogs leg and won't stop he's really like a rat on a leash and no matter what he won't stop and I say something to the owner like 'get control of your dog' and frustrated I look up and he's this guy in all black with sunglasses that genuinely creeps me out and reminds me of his dog and very calmly says 'they're just going to do what they want'.

Unless it's mad, passionate, extraordinary love,  it's a waste of your time.

There are too many mediocre things in life; Love shouldn't be one of them.

(Dream for an Insomniac)

Cross your heart and hope to die

tattoo idea

To cross one's fingers is a hand gesture commonly used to to implore God for protection, as well as to wish for good luck.
The gesture is referred to by the common expression "keeping one's fingers crossed" or just "fingers crossed" and has also been historically used in order to allow believers to recognize one another during times of persecution.
Some people, mostly children, also use the gesture to excuse their telling of a white lie. This may have its roots in the belief that the power of the Christian cross might save one from being sent to hell for telling a lie.
A similar belief is that crossing one's fingers invalidates a promise being made.

you know what i really love? when shirley warns me or says things that start with "when you're famous..." like it's not even a question, that she really thinks i could do something that matters.

be sure not to do something permanent just because you feel something temporary

let it go – the
e.e. cummings

let it go – the
smashed word broken
open vow or
the oath cracked length
wise – let it go it
was sworn to
go
let them go – the
truthful liars and
the false fair friends
and the boths and
neithers – you must let them go they
were born
to go
let all go – the
big small middling
tall bigger really
the biggest and all
things – let all go
dear
so comes love