ok i'm done being dumb. and i miss you.

Pertinent

Loving the new DSR tees, gave some away today. Putting effort out into the world, hopefully brings it back to me. Had a nice meeting, worked on design stuff all week and have been auditioning too. Can't wait to sleep in and finally relax some this weekend. My agent says she likes that I'm dressing more professionally (aka better) again. Finally learning that I had love once and don't need it now. I'm sublimating. (channeling personal life into creative outlets. freud)

Memoriess... old pics dump

The last time it was such a harsh winter, I lived near Wall Street with two other girls, and would walk to Jubilee in the snow for ice cream.

So I found out that google apparently saves every picture I thought of putting into this blog over the years, even if I didn't publish that post, and it made an album of all these pictures...
Was going through them just now....

2007, I still miss that shirt. During Spring Break in North Carolina.

Pictures and Illustrations the summer before Sophomore year:

This was taken around this time, (winter) 2001 I think. A decade ago! I was 12...

"Dorian Self Reflecting" Tee making

I spent today with Kyung in the studio working on some cool things.

Websites I recently helped build:
http://dancohencreative.com/

http://nationalblacktheatre.org/ (still in development)

Websites I really like lately:
http://ihatestevensinger.com/
http://campfirenyc.com/

Just took medicine that's making me feel sick.

Only the young die young.
I've been listening to a lot of old music from old blog posts...

Here we go at it three years later
Will you help me to dream it all up again
Tired of the same song everyone's singing
Rather be lost with you instead
All I have, All I have, All I have
Well, you know it's yours
Every breathe, Every step, Every moment I'm looking for
All I have, All I have, All I have, Is yours
As you watch my heart break a little bit more

My hair's been looking something like this recently:

Be someone other's can count on.

Got two very different emails today. One was a really nice recommendation from someone at Parsons,
"It's my pleasure to write of note of recommendation for Andrea. Andrea is a shining example of a wonderful Parson graduate. Not only is she a talented graphic designer but also smart, sincere and enthusiastic, with wonderful communication skills. Andrea will be a welcomed addition to any design team. Andrea has so much to offer and I predict she's at the start of a very rewarding career in design."
the other was a not so nice one from an old friend pointing out that I can unreliable sometimes. It really struck me because it's not the first time someone's said that, but I really care about this buddy so I'm going to try hard to be someone other's can count on.

Listening to Nicki Minaj..Pink Friday

"Tighter than Face Lifts, Higher than Space Ships"

walking around

Staying home alone on a friday..

Drew a new DSR tee shirt design, on the subway. The quote's from the part in "the Last Unicorn" when the girl who's actually a unicorn is looking into King Haggard's eyes. The lyrics above the eyes are from a song... "this place is a prison, these people aren't your friends".

Who You Are

a pertinent quote from my favorite brother:
"distance yourself from painful things and do something that makes you happy"

In the vein of my last post about personas

"Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are"

I'm watching The Last Unicorn right now, for inspiration. Wondering if I'm the last one like me in the world! lol not really.
"I'd forgotten that men cannot see unicorns. If men no longer know what they're looking at, there might still be other unicorns out there."

I think about you all the time when I'm not working. So I work harder.

I once saw on someone's facebook, or xanga, or aim profile, a quote from supposedly Enders Game about whether or not people can play a role in life without becoming it. (Thinking about this while watching the movie Persona) I found the term for it today:
Enantiodromia.
For the growing child, the development of a viable social persona is a vital part of adapting to, and preparing for adult life in, the external social world. 'A strong ego relates to the outside world through a flexible persona. For Carl Jung 'the danger is that [people] become identical with their personas - the professor with his textbook, the tenor with his voice' Then there is this break- at some point- called Enantiodromia; the emergence of the repressed individuality from beneath the persona later in life.
Heraclitus says "cold things warm, warm things cool, wet things dry and parched things get wet."
Plato: "Everything arises in this way, opposites from their opposites."
So I suppose it makes sense that someday one will look in the mirror and have to re evaluate whether or not there's a mask between oneself and other people, it will either be shabbily continue (because you'll know its a sham and not your true self), or you will have to remake your mask into something more true to who you really are.

"Images of Divine Things"

Just working and surfin the net with Booty... This week was really nice. Doing work I like, making the money, hanging out. I really like the start of this year. :)

Almost all men, and those that seem to be very miserable, love life, because they cannot bear to lose sight of such a beautiful and lovely world. The ideas, that every moment whilst we live have a beauty that we take not distinct notice of, brings a pleasure that, when we come to the trial, we had rather live in much pain and misery than lose.

• "The Beauty of the World" (c.1725), from the notebook The Images of Divine Things, The Shadows of Divine Things, The Language and Lessons of Nature (published 1948) by Jonathan Edwards The Works of Jonathan Edwards, volume 1 of 2, with active table of contents

Tim Keller tonight was saying Animals don't make art, they're too practical. They just want to survive. Often artists struggle with that, but what we do is so important- because if people were just rational, we'd just buy the cheapest thing in the supermarket, instead of the products that are better designed, that hit us emotionally or because it's green. So if there's a way to do what you love and impact people on a deeper level, and you know what you want, then it's a real blessing to be able to make a living that way.

"Man is the product of... the outcome of atoms" -Bertram Russell
"Stupidity of Dignity" by Steven Pinker (also wrote The Blank Slate: The Modern Denial of Human Nature)

Some design work

This week I worked on some really cute sticky notes and potential Math book covers for 1st and 2nd graders. And with Shirley last night, made this cute flyer for the Fertile Ground Artist Showcase going on tonight at the National Black Theatre Co.!
Also, you should all check out Dan Cohen's portfolio site that I helped make- he has some awesome work: Dancohencreative.com

liking this new sweater a lot! didn't buy it, yet.
excerpts from a chat from tonight
me:i bet you found some great clothes u havent seen in a while

friend: i had this vintage faux fur coat that i didn't like at first

and then i think i like it again

me:thats how it works huh

friend: yeah... the same goes for ppl

ETSY shop

One of my favorite books is the Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde. I have all these sketches inspired by the novel, and decided to do a series of things based on the theme.


saw this on my friends facebook and really liked it:
Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things.

Dont cry- funny video

I could do it like a brother, do it like a dude

Kid Cudi co/best Hip Hop Vid of the year at Antville Awards 2010!
http://videos.antville.org/stories/2038167

Got preview stills in my inbox this morning, for my new short film "Indecent Exposure", so excited to see the final, this was the greatest to film this past year!! Enjoy:

Watching "The Swan Princess" and eating chicken noodle stew, while doing web design and book cover ideas... It's snowing outside!
I've been liking a lot of british pop lately. There's this cheryl cole song parachute that I like, and the ingrid michaelson (apparently the original) version.
I don’t ever want to wake up...
Tonight I’ll be sleepin’
Sleepin’ with my eyes wide shut
Good day yesterday. Had a short radio interview in the morning, two freelance design meetings.

And so it starts another trip around the Sun

Back in my apartment- booty's happy. This year I'm going to try and be who I used to be (the parts I like. the innocence, openness, thinking I could do anything).
I'm not going to go out much, talk to family and old friends when I need too, but not to the point where I take out my 22 year old frustrations on them. Work really hard for what I have, and be kind to myself.




At church, the guy subbing for Tim Keller was saying that When you think everything is going well in your life, you think it's all because of you, that's you're in control. It's only when things get tough that you realize how stupid it is to think you're in control, that all you need is you.