happy easter weekend

waking up can be such a beautiful thing.

I like having problems, even if I solved them I would just create new ones. (ally Mcbeal)

'little christine' set photos

Open letter to a friend:

Hi. I always try and make it up when I feel like I'm a bad friend, I'm not good at keeping in touch or remembering birthdays, but I've always cared about you. However, I realize lately that maybe it's not me that needs to feel like correcting myself. I've always been sincere and, while stumbling, tried to be there. If the friendship doesnt stay, I'm done thinking there's anything I could've done to make it better.

I know some people dont like Drake because they feel he stands for over-auto-tuned music and lyrics with mostly double-entendres.. but I like some of the stuff he says, because there's a lot of things that I hear sometimes and catch. like in some song he writes "nothing on but the radio" (from a country song I really like) In another song he says "I can meet you in the lobby, girl I gotta watch my back, because I'm not just anybody" (referencing aaliyah's "are you that somebody"). nice. dirty south

watching many episodes of ally mcbeal in one sitting probably isnt healthy

"The real truth is I probably don't want to be too happy or content, because then what? I actually like the quest, the search. That's the fun. The more lost you are, the more you have to look forward too. What do you know, I'm having a great time, and I don't even know it"
-last lines of the Ally McBeal Pilot episode.

It's Raining.

I think once my heart likes someone, it doesnt really change.
Whether they want to stay in my life is always up to them, sometimes we go through things that take us farther away or closer. I get quiet and still now and then, but would never cut someone I cared about, out. There's two types of quietness, being forgotten, or a loaded silence where you just wonder when the next time is that you'll be brought together again.

Filed my taxes for the first time this week!! with my dad's help.

And I have my rent renewal form ready to mail out, but am wondering if I should. I've lived in the same studio for years now, but ever since a homeless guy broke into the building, I've been wondering if I'd be safer living with someone else in a bigger place.

art i did this week

(the last one I didnt do, I just saw, walking around soho at night with katy, and thought it was beautiful. reminds me of the last painting a little. drowning girls, you know)