"Why must love cost anything? Why does need have to be mixed up with love? Why can't people be like butterflies, coming together in bright sunshine and parting while the day is still bright?"

"Because they are people, not butterflies. To pretend that people can come together, love and then part with no pain or consequences is more false a role than pretending to be someone you're not. Don't, please, convince yourself that you can be with him and walk away from it without diminishing both of you. A moment ago, you spoke of love without need. To sate your need without love is theft. When you agree to be in a relationship with someone, there is always a committment. Sometimes that commitment is only that you will both pretend that it is short-term and temporary. But sometimes that commitment is made only to yourself. The other party never knows it or agrees to it."

excerpts by: Robbin Hobb's "Liveship Traders"

http://www.post-gazette.com/pg/07262/818671-85.stm

went to harvard this past weekend! I hung out with liam, and my brother <3 we had the most delicious indian buffet lunch, and watched oliver play chess with the old pros in harvard square.

Happy 4th of July! and a belated bday wish for my brother :)
cheng was here this past week! it was good to see him again. also, I have found the greatest apartment on Wall St to live with tiff and kitty this coming year!
ohh, the first pic in this entry is of my reflection in the window of the Uno's restaurant where cheng and I had our first date.. it closed recently and I photographed it for my most recent 2D project... luckily, there's another one near the new apt <3
the second pic is from a visit cheng and i took to the new "ripley's believe it or not" museum in times square. it was so cool!!
i wish i was coming home to visit again before school started, but it seems the end of class and the start of moving into the new place, datewise, will bump up right against each other... not a big deal.. thanksgiving is not too far away :D
seeing oliver this saturdaayy :)

as always, i love new york. and cheng is coming to visit tomorrow!
plus, I get to visit my brother on tuesday for his birthday, in boston :)

I've been back in the city for around 3 days now. I'm just waiting for class to begin, in 15 minutes. So far it's been ok.. the teacher seems pretty cool, and there are only like five other kids in the class lol. my dorm is pretty quiet and empty too. two out of three of my roommates are graduate students, and i still havent met my rooomate, but from what i've heard she's nice. I spend most of my time putzing around the neighborhood and watching cable (and of course doing hw).
Houston was nice while I was home. I liked watching a-dramas with emily, and the chen sibling shopping trips, hanging out with vivian, and eating pho with her and gloria. my family is the best.
I volunteered my last week, at Camp Buckaroo, for kids with cerebral palsy etc, with my brother. We were assigned a camper for the week, and mine, Tess, was so cute!

been listening to old music for the past hour.. lol.

this one's beginning is a little corny.. be warned.....


i remember this song from sometime last summer. i heard it on the bus to impact camp i think. the song's really nice. dunno if i like the video especially


<3

okay so its still the summer at home, i'm working and hanging out with family and trying to be smart about stuff. also, I have been listening to music more lately...

I came home a couple days ago for summer break! I'm in houston for a month and a half, before I leave again for ny. so far, it's been swell :) I've been sleeping a lot, driving around, and working. I really like hanging out with my brother, and watching lots of movies with my sister. I got to see some old friends too, which is nice. My mom is going to asia in a few days with my grandparents, so our family has decided to do something really nice before she leaves <3 Also, if one day, you wake up and your neck is hurting, and you can't get up or turn your head, or even move, ...ask your mother to get you some milk and vitamin c, and after a few days of drinking that with every meal, don't worry it will be fine.

"Hello, babies. Welcome to Earth. It's hot in the summer and cold in
the winter. It's round and wet and crowded. At the outside, babies,
you've got about a hundred years here. There's only one rule that I
know of, babies—God damn it, you've got to be kind."
-Kurt Vonnegut