"To live in this world, you must accomplish three things: to love what is mortal; hold it against your bones, because you know your life depends on it; and when the time comes, let it go."

I just got back from class woo. There's so much I need to do tonight, namely ignore that it's the night before Halloween, plaster cast a skeleton, make a value scale, and bake cupcakes. yup.

"All The Pretty Girls Go To The City Now
Don't They Don't They Do Don't They Do That My Love

And They Go Do D-Do D-Do
Do D-Do D-Do
Do D-Do D-Do
Do D-Do D-Do"

some sketches...

I woke up this morning, and saw Jenny! yup, we got lunch, walked around for supplies, and I came back to my dorm. It was nice seeing her again... on another note:
I felt like crying just now, and there's so much in my head that I couldn't tell you why.

You see Ive been through the desert on a horse with no name
It felt good to be out of the rain
In the desert you can remember your name
cause there aint no one for to give you no pain
La, la ...

Tonight I had an essay to write, and some readings... after, I am going to meet with a somebody for coffee, and then possibly go kareoking. yup. Life is so busy lately, either working or playing- hard.

I love the Chen's.

"Here comes the cold
Break out the winter clothes
And find a love to call your own

No way November will see our goodbye
When it comes to December it's obvious why
No one wants to be alone at Christmas time"
( listening to john mayer!)

i saw this photo today.. It's seems so long ago now.. junior year.. I played the 7 of Hearts in Alice in Wonderland, the opera. Awful atonal stuff, let me tell you. aww.. back when I was a voice major.. Pink nail polish and Lolita.

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

"nothing gold can stay"-robert frost

"Our expections define our experience."

my mental health day :)

It's Friday! The end of another long week.. after a while, I don't remember things anymore, because I'm just so tired. haha. yea, I need to start catching up on the zzz's. Also, it was very very cold today. 40 something degrees! yup. I'm gonna start wearing my sweaters and boots soon...
Hope everything's alright on the home front.

"say to the weary one,
Your God will surely come,
He will come and save you"

perfectstars.com -made by a fellow walnut hiller

if you've ever seen the movie Crash, there's a quote that goes
"It's the sense of touch. In any real city, you walk... You brush past people, people bump into you. I think we miss that touch so much, that we crash into each other, just so we can feel something."

Isn't it ironic that cities isolate people more than small towns? in a small town, everyone knows everything about everybody. up here, there are people that just disappear. i've heard that some can go weeks without ever talking to anyone. and it makes me wonder, that once in a while, if those that bump into me in the street, are only doing it because that might be the only human touch they feel.

RCF Fall Retreat was this past weekend! I'm glad I went.. some good thinking was done :)
(click to enlarge the smallish pictures)

me and mist on the lake..


1. tiffany (this girl who lives in my dorm and i have a class with, who came with me this weekend) plus myself
2. my small group!




I got back today and slept from 1 PM to 5:30

then went out to eat at this amaazing japanese restaurant on st marks place with tiffany for her roommate's 19th birthday.
It's good to be back in the city, but I'm missing the mountains.

oh, and this is what I presented today in Lab Class. The project was "people communicating nonverbally in the east village"

I really don't understand sometimes, how I make it through the day. I feel like I drift to and from class in this haze, interrupted only by people I know, and the smell of cigarette smoke.
I'm so ready for my weekend away, at church retreat :)

And September's finally over! thank goodness.
did you know that it's your skin's worst month? really, it's the one month of the year that everybody's skin breaks out exceptionally. i'm so glad it's over.

ps- mommy. i got your email. and you know i'm not like that at all. so i'm not even gonna reply to it.

I'd been thinking lately, of how cool it would be to make a little cave/fort underneath my bed in the dorm room.
So yesterday, I finally went through with my lil daydream.
Back home, I used to make little nests out of blankets to sleep in sometimes when I just didnt want to sleep in my bed.
plus, I can read in my nest.
like the candycorn lights? oh, that green pillow plugs into an ipod/ishuffle, so i can listen to music while i sleep :D