commit

I was talking to my coworker today about lunch choices, and he said "I can't commit". I replied "My friend said that about whether or not they should go out with a group of us friends the other night. I asked 'are you coming out' and she said 'I'd like too but I don't want to commit myself'. Isn't it funny how the word can apply to things like eating and hanging out?" I always thought it was so loaded.
When I saw my friend CJ after work at Starbucks, he mentioned hanging out this weekend and I used this word- again. He said "I have to say you're probably the most committment phobic person I know". And it wasn't just because I have filming on Saturday and dont know if I can hang. In the last year I've been juggling a lot of things.
And then I thought about all of this on my way home because I passed this sign in front of a church near me.
"I just want to leave a committed life behind" -MLK Jr.
Maybe this is a sign that I should change. In all things, I'd like to be more settled and intentional.