ooh la, she was such a good girl to me
Brunch with Katy then the last day of the Allen Ginsberg festival in Thompkins sq park.
a diligent and creative labor of love spanning decades; i log things i can't forget, so i don't forget them.
Sunday, June 05, 2011
Wednesday, June 01, 2011
I'm watching Ally McBeal episode 13 season 3, called "the pursuit of loneliness" right now. I feel like I search to isolate myself and am the biggest thing keeping me from being happy.
I think Booty is sad and confused when I come home lately, she doesnt understand why Im abrupt and not as nice to her and has become more vocal in her annoyance with me.
I think Booty is sad and confused when I come home lately, she doesnt understand why Im abrupt and not as nice to her and has become more vocal in her annoyance with me.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
"When you feel scared, hold someone’s hand, look into their eyes. When you feel brave, do the same thing. You are here because you’re smart and brave, and if you add to that kindness and the ability to change a tire, you almost make up the perfect person."
-Amy Poehler to Harvard Grads during Class Day
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T7N_L_pu74k&feature=player_embedded
-Amy Poehler to Harvard Grads during Class Day
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T7N_L_pu74k&feature=player_embedded
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Like a child about to get a vaccination, and doesnt understand why it's happening, instead of getting angry (which hardens a person), or anxious (which makes one more fragile), to trust the parents and be still, is what I think might be the best course of action.
I got a lot of books today. Another copy of Dorian Gray, poems by Lord Byron, This Side of Paradise by F Scott Fitzgerakd, and Neitzche.
I got a lot of books today. Another copy of Dorian Gray, poems by Lord Byron, This Side of Paradise by F Scott Fitzgerakd, and Neitzche.
Friday, May 20, 2011
all i have are memories and hope, and nothing to really connect them
(if what would connect them is the present, and memories and hope are respectively, the past and future).
Kid Rock said it was when he started feeling like a rock star, and acting like it, that he started to have a career. Interesting. I get so down on myself sometimes about what I dont get, when if I had a more positive mindset I think I'd not only feel more successful, but maybe be that way.
(if what would connect them is the present, and memories and hope are respectively, the past and future).
Kid Rock said it was when he started feeling like a rock star, and acting like it, that he started to have a career. Interesting. I get so down on myself sometimes about what I dont get, when if I had a more positive mindset I think I'd not only feel more successful, but maybe be that way.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
When I started this blog back in 2006 I had just come to New York City, had never had a boyfriend, a full fledged career, or knew what I wanted to do with my life specifically.
5 years later, I've supposedly learned all these things, and am feeling that despite all these years going by, I'm once again in that position I was in upon first arriving here. I want so much to be in love and have all my hard work pay off. I feel I know kind of what I want to do, but if I work so hard and havent gotten it, is it worth it?
I made a whole plan in my head this afternoon about how I could sell all my stuff, give my cat away, and sublet my place. I could take the money and run away to some little town in Maine and get an honest, menial job, and live in a cheap hotel by the ocean.
No expectations from me, or for me. get myself right. disappear. never want anything again.
5 years later, I've supposedly learned all these things, and am feeling that despite all these years going by, I'm once again in that position I was in upon first arriving here. I want so much to be in love and have all my hard work pay off. I feel I know kind of what I want to do, but if I work so hard and havent gotten it, is it worth it?
I made a whole plan in my head this afternoon about how I could sell all my stuff, give my cat away, and sublet my place. I could take the money and run away to some little town in Maine and get an honest, menial job, and live in a cheap hotel by the ocean.
No expectations from me, or for me. get myself right. disappear. never want anything again.
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