Sunday, June 05, 2011

ooh la, she was such a good girl to me



Brunch with Katy then the last day of the Allen Ginsberg festival in Thompkins sq park.

Wednesday, June 01, 2011

I'm watching Ally McBeal episode 13 season 3, called "the pursuit of loneliness" right now. I feel like I search to isolate myself and am the biggest thing keeping me from being happy.
I think Booty is sad and confused when I come home lately, she doesnt understand why Im abrupt and not as nice to her and has become more vocal in her annoyance with me.

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

I WISH I COULD JUST BE HAPPY
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root
and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

"When you feel scared, hold someone’s hand, look into their eyes. When you feel brave, do the same thing. You are here because you’re smart and brave, and if you add to that kindness and the ability to change a tire, you almost make up the perfect person."

-Amy Poehler to Harvard Grads during Class Day
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T7N_L_pu74k&feature=player_embedded

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Like a child about to get a vaccination, and doesnt understand why it's happening, instead of getting angry (which hardens a person), or anxious (which makes one more fragile), to trust the parents and be still, is what I think might be the best course of action.
I got a lot of books today. Another copy of Dorian Gray, poems by Lord Byron, This Side of Paradise by F Scott Fitzgerakd, and Neitzche.

Friday, May 20, 2011

all i have are memories and hope, and nothing to really connect them
(if what would connect them is the present, and memories and hope are respectively, the past and future).
Kid Rock said it was when he started feeling like a rock star, and acting like it, that he started to have a career. Interesting. I get so down on myself sometimes about what I dont get, when if I had a more positive mindset I think I'd not only feel more successful, but maybe be that way.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

According to Ciara's wiki page, an r&b singer's voice has to have three emotions: Sexy, Sassy, and Sad.
I'm hung up on people and the things I want to do with my life.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

When I started this blog back in 2006 I had just come to New York City, had never had a boyfriend, a full fledged career, or knew what I wanted to do with my life specifically.
5 years later, I've supposedly learned all these things, and am feeling that despite all these years going by, I'm once again in that position I was in upon first arriving here. I want so much to be in love and have all my hard work pay off. I feel I know kind of what I want to do, but if I work so hard and havent gotten it, is it worth it?
I made a whole plan in my head this afternoon about how I could sell all my stuff, give my cat away, and sublet my place. I could take the money and run away to some little town in Maine and get an honest, menial job, and live in a cheap hotel by the ocean.
No expectations from me, or for me. get myself right. disappear. never want anything again.

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