Where do you think heaven is?

( an email to mark)

I have too much time to think right now and I was thinking about two different conflicting theories about where heaven and hell are. Like, could heaven be in the center of the world? The heart of everything, that the pull of gravity rotates around? Or is it above the decaying leaves and bones and disintegrating stones, above all that in the sky? When people aren't worried about the day to day of existing, that's when they have time to think about their souls. Getting away from the dirt and meat of living and projecting it into something separate from what you see all around and at our feet. You know in the bible the devil is called the Prince of the sky? And he fell from heaven? So where are the two places? Do the Catholics have a fulfilling answer? My parents always said when I had questions like this that some things are just bigger than our understanding but I was interested in your thoughts. 

Also this song is for you and pertinent kind of

 http://youtu.be/DRjOBvnpXVU

'he's not perfect'

i heard this at the wedding saturday and thought you guys might enjoy. 

the groom read it after his vows.

“He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.”

― Bob Marley

my to-do list

Cut bootys nails

Pack interview outfit and portfolio 

Ask mark to bring dr bonners and slow cooker downstairs 

Get wipes, toilet paper, eggs and bring bleach or get that too

advice to the young

This is the article my friend sent me. Just interesting stuff on why we're here, and if an older version of myself could talk to me now.

The woman who wrote this reply, eventually wrote the book "Wild" which is being made into an upcoming film starring Reese witherspoon.

http://therumpus.net/2011/02/dear-sugar-the-rumpus-advice-column-64/

"There are some things you can’t understand yet. Your life will be a great and continuous unfolding. It’s good you’ve worked hard to resolve childhood issues while in your twenties, but understand that what you resolve will need to be resolved again. And again. You will come to know things that can only be known with the wisdom of age and the grace of years. Most of those things will have to do with forgiveness."

"Most things will be okay eventually, but not everything will be. Sometimes you’ll put up a good fight and lose. Sometimes you’ll hold on really hard and realize there is no choice but to let go. Acceptance is a small, quiet room."

"The useless days will add up to something. The shitty waitressing jobs. The hours writing in your journal. The long meandering walks. The hours reading poetry and story collections and novels and dead people’s diaries and wondering about sex and God and whether you should shave under your arms or not. These things are your becoming."

Also, just as a PS I've included Patti Smith's advice to the young as well. Slightly different, but still very worthwhile. http://vimeo.com/57857893

When I'm all alone or in a crowd
In a quiet place or where music's loud
If I'm on the road, or in the other room
That's how you know, I'm thinkin' of you

When the flowers bloom, when the leaves turn brown
when the sun is hot, when the snow falls down, down
when the clouds are gray, and the sky's are blue
that's how you know, I'm thinkin' of you

You're always the first and the last thing on this heart of mine
No matter where I go or what I do, I'm thinkin' of you.
http://youtu.be/INkvQpjfrHY

this is how you keep her

“You must learn her.

You must know the reason why she is silent. You must trace her weakest spots. You must write to her. You must remind her that you are there. You must know how long it takes for her to give up. You must be there to hold her when she is about to.

You must love her because many have tried and failed. And she wants to know that she is worthy to be loved, that she is worthy to be kept.

And, this is how you keep her.”
― Junot Díaz, This Is How You Lose Her

Warning: If you are reading this then this warning is for you.

Warning: If you are reading this then this warning is for you. Every word you read of this useless fine print is another second off your life. Don't you have other things to do? Is your life so empty that you honestly can't think of a better way to spend these moments? Or are you so impressed with authority that you give respect and credence to all that claim it? Do you read everything you're supposed to read? Do you think every thing you're supposed to think? Buy what you're told to want? Get out of your apartment. Meet a member of the opposite sex. Stop the excessive shopping and masturbation. Quit your job. Start a fight. Prove you're alive. If you don't claim your humanity you will become a statistic. You have been warned- Tyler.